I have written about a lot of topics but never really touched on the topic of Love. I did write a piece about the portrayal of love in modern cinema titled "Love. The Stuff in Movies", but not actual, real-life Love. Not about what it means to know that there is someone out there who cares about you. Not about how everything you do has a motive of getting that person to like you a little bit more. Not about.... well yeah you get what I've not written about. Today I write this to commemorate 3 year amazing years with someone I love.
So what is love? What is this thing that keeps you alive when you're hungry (Hope you got the reference to the song). Love to me is caring about someone other than yourself. Love is when you think about someone else in your prayers before thinking about yourself. That one person in your life who really clicks with you.
It's not all roses and romance. The fights make you feel like banging your head on the wall. The misunderstandings frustrate beyond measure. Many a times you feel lost and wonder what is the point of it all. You know this person is special to you but at the same time sometimes it feels like they are not feeling the same about you. They expect you to read their minds and know things before they say it. They don't want anyone of the opposite sex near you. They want everything from you. They want you completely for themselves.
These things don't matter.
In fact I would say these things are important for love. If there are no fights, there are no moments of making me up and buttering that special someone with their favorite joke (About the twins <inside joke>). The misunderstandings just urge us to know them better and remind us that you can never "know enough about that person. Only when we are lost and wonder what is the point of it all do we realize that even thinking about a life without gives you goosebumps. You may think they don't feel the same about you but when they show you through their actions that you matter more in their lives then we could ever imagine. After so much time together it is almost like you can read their minds. You know what they like, what they hate, where they like to eat out, where they say they are going at home to come meet you. You know their parents will call every few minutes but you also know that it annoys them more than it annoys you. Both will know when a sentence is said what will come next. They don't want the opposite sex around you not because they don't trust you but because they don't trust them. You want to give them everything that you are. You want them for yourself too.
Some would say being together for so long means we are perfectly made for each other. I think we change ourselves for each other. We love each other the way we are but we want to make ourselves better for each other. Watching another person making an effort to change themselves for you gives you an indescribable feeling. It makes you want to change yourself.
I never will feel good enough for her but I also know that she chooses to stay with me through all my flaws because she sees in me something that I do not. This is why i find it very funny whenever she thinks I would ever leave her for someone else. That someone else will never be half of what you are. Stay awesome. Love you. :*